Having been diagnosed with MM in Oct 2011 and come a long way , a thought often arises in my mind as to whether I should reveal/discuss my condition with whom I spend a considerable amount of time.
A lot of people around me , at work , friends and relatives already know to some extent. They may not know exactly what I have been through. However my observation is that no one ever asks me any direct questions. Many of them come to know through various channels but prefer not to talk about it.
Either they dread talking about this topic or they feel they shouldn’t cross a certain limit as health is supposed be a private matter or they don’t start the topic because I don’t encourage such a discussion or people are engrossed with their own stuff.
Whatever be the reason , I am quite comfortable with the way things are happening around me….ignorance is bliss 🙂
I myself have been through similar situations in the past , much before I was diagnosed, when I came across people who were diagnosed with Cancer and I would be terrified to even look at them. So , here I am , having survived Multiple Myeloma and writing from the other side :).
hmmm , what goes around comes around !!
When someone asks me how I am doing , I give a big smile and tell them ‘I am doing well, thank you’. There are a few confidantes at work, with whom I share information about my tests, my medications etc . I also update my Boss who has a lot of interest in matters related to health / Alternative treatments and gives me some advise too.
There are a few online friends from school and college with whom I feel happy to share the status of my health.
Apart from my parents, brother and sister I do not discuss with any others in the extended family. Of course , hubby is a constant support 🙂
There are times when I feel tempted to share the link to my Blog with everyone at work, extended family and with all my classmates from school and college. I guess I am not yet ready to openly declare…maybe some other time. I can already sense that a few are staying away from me and it is ok.
I shouldn’t be thinking too much about who knows and who doesn’t and concentrate more on enjoying the present moment.
The best part of this blog is I can let out all my feelings and share my MM journey and other random events in my life.
So glad I am finally stable.
A few readers (MM patients/caregivers) of my Blog get in touch with me and I am more than willing to listen and encourage them. Gives me immense happiness to know that I have made a difference to them. I hope to get more opportunities to do my bit to humanity.
Life seems much more meaningful now.