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Living with Multiple Myeloma in Hyderabad , India . Random musings .

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Heal yourself.

Of late I have been watching a lot of videos by Anita Moorjani.

Currently watching videos of Louise Hay. Louise Hay says that feelings of Resentment , Guilt, Fear and Criticism cause disease and by certain affirmations of gratitude and love, one can get rid of these feelings, thereby getting healed.

Both Louise and Anita emphasise on loving ourselves and give lots of practical tips on how to actually love ourselves , something that most do not know and are not even aware of the importance of self love. Self love is not the same as vanity or narcissistic.

I have been watching their videos repeatedly and every time there is something new in their talks that makes sense to me and is more acceptable.

I am also enjoying the meditation videos by Louise Hay.

Louise and Anita are a boon to humanity. Both of them beat Cancer and are doing great service by sharing their healing experiences and methods with all.

Apart from all the medications one takes to heal the body, it is equally important to have a healthy mind which in turns helps in healing. Strongly advise everyone to read their books and watch their videos.

I recently came across a practice of ‘Chanting’ . A particular branch of Buddhism has popularized chanting ‘Nam Myoho Range Kyo’. A colleague introduced this to me. The mantra is the essence of Buddhism which says that every individual has the ability to overcome any suffering , any situation. By chanting this mantra , one’s faith increases. Simultaneously the universe also aligns with our efforts, thereby one can achieve their goals.

I also came across a video about ‘Grounding’. A new concept which requires an individual to sit and place their bare feet on the ground, preferably surrounded by nature , for maybe 10 or 15 minutes or more. Then imagine roots growing from the bottom of the feet and going deep into the earth. The imaginary roots then help in absorbing the energy from the earth and into the body. This process helps in calming the mind, relieving stress and in centering the mind.

Anything and everything to stay heal yourself and stay healthy 🙂

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What is Intuition , why to develop Intuition and how to develop Intuition


Of late , I have been listening to talks by Anita Moorjani on YouTube and I came across a few of her videos where she talks about ‘Intuition’ and how to develop Intuition. She also talks about how we are actually Six Sensory beings.

Anita had completely recovered from End stage Cancer after a Near Death Experience. Her talks are very inspiring and help people introspect and change their way of thinking and living a beautiful life which helps in healing. Her talks are all about her realizations during the NDE.

Most of us have heard the word ‘Intuition’ but dismiss it almost immediately. It is usually understood as something similar to Sixth Sense. But, how many of us even pause to think and ponder over this phenomenon. We are too busy to stop and give it a thought . At least I never bothered to give it a thought.

We usually take a decision after a lot of analysis and reasoning. The decisions are influenced by the rules and regulations imposed by the society , the culture , religion etc. The decision also depends on our past experiences.We don’t listen to what our innermost thoughts are actually telling us, our gut feeling is ignored and we sacrifice our wants/desires for the external environment that we are living in.This results in ill health, poor decisions and bad relationships with people. Anita says that one has to follow the gut feeling, the instinct , to be spontaneous ,which is the Intuition. We are too bogged down to even realize that we are not being our natural selves. The result is that we resist our innermost feelings which implies we do not love ourselves as much as we should be , rather we always end up giving and not knowing how to receive.

Here is what Anita has to say about how Intuition is REAL and how one can develop it so we can live a better life.When we trust our Intuition , we trust in ourselves. When we follow our Intuition we love ourselves more , which is an important aspect in healing. Only when we love ourselves we can give to the society.

So here are the steps given by Anita Moorjani to recognize and develop our Intuition :

1.Read/listen about stories/articles/videos on Intuition.

2.Observe what increases your energy and Journal. Monitor your energy levels when you are with different people, places, situations and journal the observations. eg talking to certain people increases our Energy . Being in certain places makes us happy , hobbies like reading , gardening etc are very relaxing to the mind

3.Do more of the things that raise your energy levels eg being in nature, watching certain programs on TV, being with kids , being with family, meditation , pursue a hobby. Spend more time with people you actually enjoy being with and go to places that envigorate you. Certain tasks like Cooking energizes a few people . Do more of whatever you are passionate about .

4.Listen to messages/thoughts while in the shower, dreams, in a certain room, place , while doing routine tasks etc. Journal these messages. Follow them and note whether they had come out well. Notice your gut feeling and follow . Listen to the quiet voice within.

5. Visualize what you want . Visualize yourself completely well.Most importantly visualize what would you do with the rest of the life and what would you stop doing during the rest of your life and start following and live whatever you are visualizing. Your imagination sets the tone for what the future will be . eg health, relationships , finance etc. Also visualize uplifting others energy eg those who are in trouble.

Visualize you are interconnected with everyone and everything around…people, trees, animals , the earth… like a gaint web.. imagine a web with everyone and everything connected…put out Joy and trust into the web ..this expands the yourself

Intuition gives us solutions and makes us feel safe rather than live a fearful life.

I have just begun observing my gut feelings and started to follow them. It does feel good when I follow my gut feelings rather than what my mind is saying . I have started observing that I do get solutions in the shower :)….something that was always happening but realized only now that this is what is called Intuition 🙂

The reason for writing this post is to help me develop my Intuition and also help others to be themselves rather than be influenced by the environment , thereby living a happy , healthy and productive life.

The more we learn to be in the Intuitive state the more creative , innovative , happy and healthy one can be. Using Intuition one can draw more positive situations and opportunities. Intuitive people are better decision makers too.

Here are a few quotes on Intuition by a few popular personalities:-

Intuition is whisper of the Soul – Jiddu Krishnamurty

“It is through science that we prove, but through intuition that we discover.” -Henri Poincare

“Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma – which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition.” – Steve Jobs

“The only real valuable thing is intuition.” – Albert Einstein

“I rely far more on Gut instinct than researching on huge amounts of statistics” – Richard Branson

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Brass Anklets, Ghungroos, Dance, School : Sweet Memories

Came across this pic in a post by ‘Natyagruha’ on Facebook . Those ‘Ghungroos’ took me back to my school days.

I had subscribed to this Facebook page recently and get to watch some of the most beautiful dance performances everyday.

It is a beautiful feeling when I watch the dancers and imagine myself doing those dance steps :).

My interest in dancing started in school where we had this hobby class.

We had the option to choose from Music , Dance , Clay modelling and Drawing.

I chose Dance.

We had one Dance period every week. During the initial years in High school, we had a Bharatnatyam teacher and during the later years we had a Kuchipudi teacher.

I was a good dancer and was always made to stand in the front row during the class 🙂

I always got selected in the Dance competitions among the various Groups in school.

All the practice sessions were fun.We had the privilege to bunk classes for the practice sessions.

The D – day would soon arrive. All the costumes and jewelry would be hired and would arrive in a huge box and placed backstage. The costumes were very bright and colorful , the jewelry glittered and lots of Anklets too. I love the sound of Anklets.

The makeup man would arrive and one by one he would transform all of us into the most beautiful girls. We hardly recognized each other with all the makeup 🙂

Wow , makeup is like magic. The pancake foundation, thick kajal for the eyes, bright red lipstick, blush, nicely arched eyebrows, big bindhi. Little white dots lining the arch of the eyebrows completed the makeup.

A bun is formed with a little hair on top of the back of the head. Rest of the the hair was braided , false-hair was also used to make the plait appear longer. The long braid ends with Jada Kuppalu/Gantalu (three beautiful golden bulbs/bells).

Strings of flowers would be placed around the bun . The braid was then decked with flowers from top to bottom. The ‘sun’ and ‘moon’ ornaments were put in place on either side of the partition on the head .A ‘Tika’ in the center. Nice big earrings dangled from the ears. A nose ring would be pressed to one nostril.

We then got dressed in the costumes.

Rest of the jewelry is decorated over the costume. A big choker and a long chain around the neck, a Vaddanam at the waist , Vanki’s on the forearms…lot of Bangles on the wrists.

Time to apply ‘Alta’ on the hands and feet . Got to take care not to move and not touch anything till the alta dries up. This is instant henna 🙂 which is a bright pink liquid applied on the palms and feet in a traditional design using a brush.

Love the final result.

Once the alta is dried up , time to tie the brass anklets …got to tie them tightly so they don’t loosen up and fall off while doing the performance. I just love the feel and sound of those Ghungroos on my feet.

All set for the performance .There is a little nervousness initially when the curtains on the stage are drawn and I get a glimpse of the audience.

All the lights in front of the stage are focused on us and hence the view of the audience thankfully gets blurred 🙂

Got to be composed and concentrate on the sequence of dance steps and the rhythm.

The show is over and time to get backstage and remove all the jewelry , costumes and Anklets .

I am back home with my parents who meet me backstage.Time to remove the pancake makeup on my face.. I rub a little coconut oil on my face which dissolves the makeup and makes it easy to be washed off.

All the flowers and false hair which are put in place with dozens are hairpins are carefully removed by my mom and sis .

My body feels light and I go to sleep.

I wake up and look forward to the next Dance competition.

Winning was not a priority and I don’t remember having won or lost the competition. It was all about the participation, the practices, the dressing up and the excitement on the D-day.

I always wanted to own a pair of Ghungroos. One day the Dance teacher said they will be ordering Ghungroos on our behalf. I was so excited and told my parents and they accepted immediately. I was sooo happy on receiving my set of Ghungroos . They had a thick yellow thread with intricately and tightly woven ghungroos. The Ghungroos have to be worn on the feet after an act of reverance , by holding them in both the palms and bringing them close to the closed eyes ( a Hindu custom) .

They were one of my most favorite possessions during school.

Somewhere in the rat race of college , job , marriage , kid , those Ghungroos were forgotten and also lost :(.

All those memories came back when I saw this pic.

Felt like pouring my thoughts here.


Visit to an Organo Organic farm in Hyderabad

I had been trying to get a supply of A2 milk since a year but was unsuccessful.Finally got my first bottle of A2 milk delivered by Organo farm store a few days ago.Soon after I got a message that a Santha (farmer’s market) is being organised at organo Naandi and that we can visit their farms too.Organo is starting a concept where a consumer can adopt a farmer and grow veggies which are delivered fresh every week at their doorstep.Wanted to checkout what they were up to and landed at Organo Naandi this morning with Mom.Stepped into a store selling Organic groceries.I was expecting to see lot of fresh veggies and found that there weren’t any. When I enquired , we were told that we will soon be taken to a farm. Saw a few more families arriving.Thought that the veggies would be available at the farms. We were then led to the farms a few km from the store.Saw a few people marking and placing papers (with names of veggies written) on a freshly tilled farmland. Also saw a few cows and calves nearby.Very soon a Farmer and his wife arrived. They began doing puja to the cows that were tied nearby.It was then that we realised that the farm was being inaugurated that day. They hadn’t revealed this event to us.Soon a bottle of cow urine and tricodomas were poured in two dishes. Out came a few packets of Vegetable seeds.The seeds were rinsed in each of the liquids and placed on a jute sack for drying.A few Questionss and Answers were exchanged between the visitors and the Farmer and the caretaker.It was time to sow the seeds and the farmers wife took a few seeds and started sowing. The visitors were told that they can volunteer to sow.Some of us took a few seeds and walked across the field and stuck a few seeds in the soil. Was a different kind of experience. Felt good.Sweets were distributed .We were told that lunch is being served at the Organo farm store. Reached the lunch venue . Had a simple lunch made with millets.Picked up a few groceries and started back . We were disappointed on not getting veggies but were happy that we had a good time at the farm.The weather was great…cloudy with cool breeze blowing..Overall a wonderful surprise for me and Mom.

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Gratitude journal 13 June 2019

Grateful for being back at work after suffering a bout of cough/cold.

Extremely grateful to my Ayurveda Doctor without whom I wouldn’t be posting on this blog.

Grateful that my Driver is very regular and rarely takes leave. He has been with us for the last seven years and we never had any issue with him.God bless him and his family. He rarely refuses to come on a Sunday or a Holiday if we need him. Thank to him , I can peacefully sleep and be confident that he will turn up in the morning and take me to work and back. I don’t have to worry about booking a cab. He always informs me in advance if he wants to take a day off. I pay him more than the other Drivers only for the reason that he is very honest and dependable. He also helps us in little chores around the house. Nice to see him get married and have kids during his stint with us.

So glad to have colleagues at work who are fun to be with. We learn a lot from the chat sessions we all share. We spend half our waking lives together . So thankful for their company.

It’s Summer here. Grateful to Mother nature for giving us delicious fruits like Mangoes, jack-fruit, ice apple in Summer . Been enjoying lots of these this season.

~ Sarve janaha Sukhino Bhavanthu ~

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Surya Organic farm , Hyderabad , a partner of Farmizen.

My search for Organic veggies led me to the discovery of Farmizen.

A concept where one can rent a piece of land for growing veggies. All the hard work is done by the Farmer who is a partner of Farmizen. A Plots of 20×30 feet can be rented for Rs2500/-. A variety of veggies are grown and delivered to our home every week.

I rented one such plot and have been receiving veggies every week.

Received these veggies this week.

It’s been more than a month that I have subscribed to Farmizen. The veggies are grown using organic manure and pesticides.

The Farmizen app is very user friendly. Status of the plants in our plot is updated frequently. Updates on watering of the plants, application of pesticides , time for harvesting  etc are posted . We can also request for photographs of the plants in our plot via the app.

A notification is sent via the app about the date of delivery of veggies . Facility to pin the location of our home address in a map is provided in the app.

We can also visit the farm 6 times a month. I have been to the farm thrice and it is nice to see the veggies growing . Love driving to the farm which is close to Himayatsagar lake.

Looking forward to visit again once the monsoons are here.

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No cook Kulfi , in a jiffy

Summer is here. The best part of Summer is you can enjoy ice creams without any fear of ending up with a runny nose.

I suddenly felt this urge to make ice-cream at home. I never tried to prepare ice-cream at home.

I remember freezing fruit juice in a steel glass when I was a kid and I was thrilled with the outcome. That was when my parents purchased a refrigerator 🙂 . I Never ever attempted an authentic ice-cream which is actually made with milk and cream. I didn’t want to buy another device for making ice-cream nor did i have the patience to mix the ingredients,  freeze , whip again till smooth , freeze again …whipping again ..again and again till you end up with a smoooth ice-cream. That’s not me.

I wanted to try the ice-cream thing again. I started watching YouTube and was looking for an easy way with few ingredients and a simple process.. hoping someone would have come up with an easy recipe..Luckily I  came across a No cook recipe to make Kulfi.  Wowww , I was excited .  Kulfi is an traditional Indian way of making a frozen dessert which is no different from the regular ice-cream. A Kulfi is traditionally made by thickening milk  on a stove for a few hours and adding powdered nuts and cardamom and then freezing it . Thickening is a lengthy process too. There was no condensed milk or fresh cream or milk powder in the earlier days.  We now get all these in the supermarket and hence there is an instant way to make Kulfi.

I was excited with this recipe and immediately bought the ingredients.

This recipe has just 5 ingredients :


Fresh Cream – one cup

Milk powder – Half cup

Sugar – Half cup

Almonds / Pista / Cashew – Any two or even one is good enough

Cardamom : few pods

Procedure :

Step 1 – Blend the Nuts , cardamom and Sugar into a fine powder and keep it aside.


Step 2 – Whip up the Fresh cream in a container. You can use a whipper or an egg beater too.

Step 3 – Add the Milk powder to the Fresh cream and mix well.

Step 4 – Add the fine powder from Step 1 and mix well.

Step 5 – Pour into Kulfi moulds and freeze. Not to worry if you don’t have Kulfi moulds. Freeze the mixture in  any container for 5 to 6 hours.

Your instant yummy Kulfi is ready to dig into. Enjoyy .